What am I doing with my life?

Hello everyone, and by everyone I mean the 2-3 people who still randomly check my blog to see if I have posted anything in the past year. I've been promising that I would pick up my blogging again, and so here goes. It's been an interesting time lately. A year post stem cell transplant and it would seem that I am still in remission. I am having blood work done on Thursday and meet again with my oncologist a week from Tuesday. I'd like to say that I am anxiety free and that I don't worry at all about each and every check-up, but that would be a lie. I get a little nervous. To be honest, after the death of my friend Donna whose cancer came back with a vengeance, it's hard not to be a little scared. Not to mention still somewhat down. I miss her, and I still haven't fully come to grips with the fact that I'll never joke with her or talk with her again.

These past months have been great in terms of my health, as I seem to move from strength to strength physically, and yet have been somewhat tumultuous personally and professionally. I have yet to find a ministry position, which is frustrating, and leaves me wondering what it is that God wants me to do. I don't know if I should just take any job that I can get, or if I should hold out, or if I should just focus on my writing. I have been encouraged by several people to write a book, and I have been slowly working on that. I just don't know, and I am a little confused.

So that's where I am right now. Happy to be healthy, and wallowing in confusion. More to come.